Last night, after about... 10 minutes of thinking, I decided to move journals. I haven't been "Fox Reed" in a good long time and it's about time I did something about it. I just don't feel the same love for this journal as I used to. Too much has happened in the last year and a half. Too much to forget and too much to move on from... not without making some changes.

Sounds silly, I'm sure, but I've been making big changes. I don't post in here as much so I doubt anyone'll be too bothered that I've moved... But my biggest change will be this. I'm a pack rat by nature, I hate throwing things away and that's why I've waited this long to do this. Only thing that pisses me off is that I have paid time still with this account and they won't transfer it! Buggers... I'll just have to pay for the other one another time. And get myself more icons! Because icons rule!

*coughs* Anyhoo... point is this, moving has been a long time in coming, the journal has already been made and is ready to start. I've also made it Friends Only... so... yeah.

foxxie_kittsune

Feel free to add this new name if you like! *grins* Just because I'm moving doesn't mean I wanna leave you guys behind!

Current Mood: contemplative

WHY CAN'T I SLEEP??? Gods damnit this is annoying. *whimpers* My stomach hurts now... But... I have more to add to my RPG PLOT!!!

Okay, so we've worked out what's going to happen to Shuichi, now for the others! So far Shuichi is in a coma and Luichi has taken over his life. As evil twin brothers are known to do! But I have more characters than Shuichi and so I must free them also!

Now for Loki. I adore Loki more than life itself! He's sweet and cute... BUT HE WILL DIE!! How? Simple! Luichi! See, while Luichi takes over Shuichi's life, he takes Aria (Shuichi's little sister) and keeps her locked up in the basement (don't ask how there's a basement when they live in an apartment, it's a soap opera, logic doesn't live here!) where he tortures her randomly with his rap. He thinks he's good, but what do evil twin brothers know??

Loki gets curious about the missing Aria so confronts Luichi where he realises that Luichi is actually Shuichi's evil twin brother and point and yells "YOU'RE NOT SHUICHI!!" to which Luichi wittily replies "MWAHAHAHA!!" and then stabs Loki in the spleen. Loki bleeds to death. The end!

... or is it??

On hearing the news Jez, Loki's sister, take a run and jump off a cliff and becomes a greasy smudge on the rocks. Aria is forgotten and is left tied up in the basement. They find her years later when Time Team go to the US and do a dig. Tony Robinson thinks it's the find of the century but soon realises he was wrong and so gets the CSI team in and... That's a whole different story! Back to the point!

Okay, So Jez jumps to a watery grave and leaves her daughter behind who soon grows up into a bitter young woman consumed by revenge. She hunts down Luichi who was never killed and has been living happily ever after in a mental institute because he thinks that flowers are after him. Anyhoo, Merlie (Jez's daughter) finds him and kills him. Stab to the spleen!!! She's then arrested by the police and sent to jail where she becomes someone's bitch!

Now for Loki's kids! Regina becomes a prostitute. And a very good one too! Arimar gets married and has six kids, one he names Loki after his dad. The others are called Loki 2, Loki 3, Loki 4, Loki 5 and Loki 6. Two of the kids are girls. And no, he's not obsessed in his dead father. Why do you ask? Loki's other two children, Iemia and Kaelin grow up and run off to live in incestuous bliss!

*ponders* I'm not sure if I've missed anyone. But if I have I'll work them into my "plot" one way or another!


(Note to self: Songs that would be GOOD as brushes: Bon Jovi - It's my Life and Utada Hikaru - Hear me Cry)

Current Mood: sore

I can't seem to be able to sleep and that sucks muchly because I know I'm tired and I really wanna sleep but can't and that makes me cranky! I did manage a few hours this afternoon where I had a VERY weird dream... I won't go into details, but it involved old people somehow... and my kitten sleeping in a washing basket. It was just plain weird.

Anyhoo... I put up a batch of new icons over at wonderland__. A few Loveless, some Yami no Matsuei and one FMA one that Wicked gave me the quote for and just DEMANDED to be made! It's odd... I don't usually get in the mood to make icons, much less LIKE the icons that I make. I should be making brushes since I have a 101 to make, same with my bases. I have requests to complete and a mood theme to finish! But I'm happily procrastinating and feeling guilty about it but not so much that I care. ... did that make sense? Prolly not. Never mind!

Oh, and I was VERY amused to find that I'd been submitted and accepted into an LJ Directory under "icons". I feel I should have been put under "brushes" but hey. I'm not complaining! Oooh... I should make a suggestion! BASES!! Everyone loves bases and you couldn't make icons without 'em! *laughs*

Anyhoo... enough of that.

I have come to a decision regarding my RPG's! Or should I say, the RPG I'm in that's messing my head up in a royal fashion. Now, since the whole thing plays like a fucked up soap opera (Twin Peaks on crack!) I'm going to play with that!

So yeah, my decision... In keeping with the "plot" (I use that term very loosely as I'm not even sure there IS a plot, just a bunch of angst filled events powered by the suffering and pain of the poor misused characters) I'm going to have my character, Shuichi, attacked by... BEES!!!!

Yep, you heard it here! He will be attacked by a swarm of bees! The poor bugger is scared of them and allergic to them, so when they attack him he will go into anaphylactic shock and fall into a DEEP coma! Now, in keeping with the Soap Opera nature of the RP, Shuichi's evil twin Luichi, will show up!! And he'll be all: "MWAHAHAHA!! Now you are dead (in a coma) I will take over your LIFE! I will don these glasses and this fake mustache and become you and noone will know the difference! As those are the rules as stated by Superman and Spiderman comics! MWAHAHAHA!!" ... and it will be fun all around!!

NOW... this is where I need some help. I need an interesting way for Shu dear to get attacked by Bees. And I KNOW that EVERYONE has a bee or wasp story! So share them with me people!! Have you been chased by one? Attacked? Went to bite into a bar of chocolate and almost swallowed one?? *beams* I've been chased by wasps who wanted to steal my ice cream and stung in the ASS by a bee! My only comfort is, that after stinging me in the ass, the bastard died! Makes me laugh!

So help me with my research! I need BEE (or wasp) STORIES!!!!

And now... I'm gonna try and get some sleep!!

{EDIT}

I also need to apologise to anyone who is on my YIM list. I was HACKED this afternoon! Bastard tainted my IM with a link for that damned Spears woman. I know two other people who've been attacked by the same thing, but as far as I know they where both been offline at the time it happened. While I was forced to sign out while the bastard had his way with my SN!! Rather annoyed, kinda amused, want to find him and slit his throat! Either way, very sorry for it! Wasn't my fault so please don't kill me!!

Current Mood: chipper

Congratulate me! I've actually commented on people's posts! I'm so terrible at that... I know I am. I get distracted or never know what to say, so I usually don't say anything at all! But I have today and I sorta feel happy about that! I'm also kinda tired still... I should go and have a nap before I attempt to tidy up the house.

Mum said she'd bring me home Resident Evil 4! I can't wait! I hope she remembers though... or I'm gonna cry and give her food poisoning when I cook the tea later on. hehehehe

I am now all kinds of bored!
No one's online... *pouts* Though Kitty-chan did keep me amused with random comics and whatnot! Then I stole some icons from her... and it's all good!!

I need some chocolate... But we dun have any and I can't get any until my mum comes home with my money and stuffs. Sucks ta be me! Maybe I'll have an early dinner, nice cup of tea, a nap... clean... and then settle down for a night of zombie killing!! Sounds good to me!!

( Stolen Quiz! I'm emotional apparently! )

( Stolen Music Meme!! )

Current Mood: bored

Stolen from rail

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2. Pass it on.

( My Answers )

Current Mood: amused

Okay, so late last night I felt the need to take a midnight bathroom break. That might be a little TMI, but I need to set the mood.

As I was walking to the bathroom, I couldn't see, due to the lack of lighting. So... my foot brushed something. I thought it was some fluff, or maybe a sock laying around. I paid it no mind... until on my way out I saw that it was a leaf and I jumped!! Now, I do this a lot. I see a leaf out of the corner of my eye and think it's a spider and freak out, and this time wasn't any different. If only for the fact that... somewhere in my mind, a little voice was screaming at me. That voice was yelling, "LEGS!!! THE LEAF HAS LEGS!!!" Once my mind started to listen to the voice, my eyes started to see it for what it was. It was a spider about half the size of my hand and it was LOOKING at me!!

I whimpered. Yep, I actually whimpered. It was a big fucking bastard! I dived to the side and looked around for something big and heavy to smack it with, because I knew a rolled up newspaper just wouldn't work for this guy. He'd just stand there and look at me and say, "That all ya got, BITCH?!" Because you know spiders think they're hard, even when they're squishy messes!

Anyway, my thinking was, Mister Spider was either going to:
A: Get hit with the size 12 boot of my dads and not feel a thing and then come after me.
B: Get hit with the size 12 boot of my dads and walk away with it on it's back, much like a turtle!
C: See the shadow of the boot and run.
D: See the shadow of the boot and attack my ankles.
E: Die and come and haunt me.

What I didn't expect was for the little fuck to look around. Yep, he looked around. Left, right, left again... and then he shot forward and hid under a chair! HE KNEW!! He knew I was looking for my dad's size 12 boot and he knew I'd try and kill him!!

I couldn't sleep all that night... I had to shut my door. I was afraid he'd come and sneak into my room and I'd wake up and he'd be staring at me and laughing and then he'd suck out my EYEBALL!! ... or some such thing.

*dies laughing*

Current Mood: awake

So I'm bored out of my head. My dad hasn't gone to work yet but he'll be going tonight... aaaaaaand... tomorrow... I'M GETTING RESIDENT EVIL 4!!!! *dances happily* I've been wanting that game since I first heard about it and now I'm gonna get it and I'm all kinds of happy! But sleepy... I hate being sleepy. I think I'm gonna get an early night tonight. 9 or 10pm. Maybe it'll help me catch up on my sleep? I didn't sleep all that good last night. I keep having weird dreams, but I've not remembered them the last few days...

Dad found my letter to DA. It wasn't at all fun or pretty. He took it off me. So I'll start over again tomorrow morning and send it Monday before he comes home again. *sighs* I don't know what he has against me sending letters or getting them... My mum was furious when she found out what he did and they got into a big fight... Which means him going to work tonight is a very good thing.

Gonna make some icons in a minuet. And my Poll worked! ... Looks like Gravitation is in the lead though! hehehe. Interesting.


( Star Signs )

Current Mood: aggravated

Poll #554479 Iconfiend100 Suggestions
Open to: All, results viewable to: All

What Should Be My Next (General Series) Theme?

Current Mood: accomplished

My parents are arguing! Wonderful!

I'm bored out of my tiny little mind. Though... my dad is amuisng me. He went to the dentist and he's now high from whatever they gave him and it's really just funny to watch. I'm waiting for him to walk into a wall and apologise.

Ack... I WANT Resident Evil 4 damnit!! It looks sooo good, and Leon is soooo yummy!

Which reminds me! (don't ask me how, it just does) Does anyone know how to make Polls on LJ? Because I'm stumped and I can't understand the instructions and... I'm terribly slow and stupid! So can anyone help a poor, helpless little english girl make one?? *beams*

I should clean my room!! Or make tea... Hmm... which one would be better? Work... or tea... Tea... or work.... Should I even be asking this question? Isn't the answer obvious?? hehehe

( Stolen Meme's of Doom!!! )

Current Mood: amused

*purrs happily*
Ice cream is heavenly! And if you happen to have chocolate bits and caramel mixed into it, it goes from heavenly, to godly! And to make the experience all the better, I'll make myself some tea to go after it!

hehehe, it's the little pleasures in life that make it all worth while!

Anyway, I'm bored otherwise, so I'm making more icons. I'm actually enjoying myself doing this! I've even started to think about doing it again after I've finished this set! With another theme, of course. It's just a matter of picking one!

I was thinking of maybe doing AIR, the general series... because AIR just doesn't get enough love! Or maybe Gravitation? Hmm... or Sukisho!! Oh, decisions decisions!

Ick... dad's just arrived home... I hope he goes back to work soon. Like, tonight soon, or even early tomorrow morning, I'm not picky! Just so long as it's SOON! And I'm now hungry. Does ice cream make anyone else hungry? Is it just me? I wouldn't be surprised if it was just me. One more odd thing to add to the looong list of odd things that combine to make Foxxie!!

*coughs*
I should get some sleep. I'm actually pretty tired. You can tell by the randomness and lameness of this post!
But I'm hungry.
And I'm making icons.
And I'm wondering if Wicked is okay. I've not seen her online lately and I miss her!
I'm also gonna fix my LJ at some point today and GET ICONS!! Oh the joy of not having just three icons! *dances*

Current Mood: bored

Okay, so I'm all calmed down now after the stupid cock-up. Mum thought it was VERY funny because I'd started swearing a blue streak and she'd heard every word! *dies* My mum has a strict "No Swearing Policy" in this house. She doesn't care if we do it, just so long as she doesn't have to hear it (which is weird, since she and my dad swear all the time, including in front of her own mother and father!).

So anyway...I'm gonna piss around with my LJ and Shu's LJ at some point because... well, I bought it might as well have some fun in playing around with it!

Why is it, that when you actually feel like watching some TV, there's nothing ever on? But when you're busy or have to go out somewhere, there's ALWAYS something on that you really wanna see? Sods Law at work I think.

Hmm... OH! I've been making GW Icons like there's no tomorrow! I think I've made 10 just today! So I've now made 35! Tell me what you think?. I've made a few textless icons... I don't usually do that. It feels kinda weird, but I do like them so far! Though the pink one must die... *throws rocks at it*

I'm kinda tired now. I think I'll call it a night. It IS midnight after all!!

Current Mood: sleepy

Okay... so that's £30+ down the drain... I was going to buy Resident Evil 4!! *pouts* But now I can't... Why? Because I have to pay my mum back for the extreme cock-up I've just suffered!

Buuuuut... On the up-side, I now have a paid account and it's all good!
Just what I'm gonna do with it, I don't know... because now I'm tired and fed up and in need of some STRONG tea with 12 sugars!

Current Mood: annoyed

Okay, I am SUCH a fucking IDIOT!!!

So I was messing around with a character journal a little while ago and TOTALLY forgot that I was doing it! So an hour later I get the brainwave that I'm finally going to but my LJ account! I begged my mum, said the price had come down and it was a great offer so she let me!

I was messing around with the account details, freaking out because last time it wouldn't work... But this time it did!! And what did I get? An E-mail saying thank you to Shuichi Tama for buying his LJ account!! *DIES!!!* A years account and extra user pics... THEY WHERE MEANT TO BE MINE DAMNIT!!! *cries*

Current Mood: pissed off

*falls over*
Damnit all! I want a paid account!!! *laughs*
I want 100 icons!!
I'll never use 100 icons... but I'm a greedy little so-and-so and it's what I want damnit!!
Hmm... just a matter of working out how to get my hands on the cash, and the how to get LJ to accept my cash and give me a paid account!!!
I tried it once before and it wouldn't go through. Kept getting damned error messages saying something about the credit card not being valid. Which is bullshit, considering my parents actually USE the damn thing!

Oh well, can't complain.
Actually, yeah I can!
I think my old computer is haunting this one! It's because he used parts from my old computer in this one!!! You see this happen on horror movies and things! Some guy gets killed and they put all his organs in jars and people who need them go, "Oooh, that's a pretty spleen! I'll have that one!" and then they get put in this new person and the dead guy gets pissed off and all manner of weird things start happening!
Yeah well, my computer crashed. My YIM crashed and it's not fair! I can't download anything from BT for some reason. I get a disgusting amount of spywear clinging to my computer and it WON'T GO AWAY!

Blah... bored now! Must make icons!!

Current Mood: blah

I watched a movie last night with my sister called "Toolbox Murders" and...I think we're terrible, terrible people! We where laughing throughout the whole thing! I mean, people where getting killed in horrible, disgusting ways... and we where laughing so hard we where almost crying! We kept shouting at them all! Like the idiot "heroine" who felt the strong need to find out what was going on in the new appartment she was living in... and once she found out what was going on... had the odd desire to go and do some investigating, alone, without telling anyone, completely unarmed... except for a torch that did squat! And then... to make matters worse, the dumb bint went INTO the murderers "lair"... again without telling anyone, again unarmed, and acting like a scared little woman! GAH! People like that piss me off! Like... she was standing on the stairs looking down to see if he was following her, which he was, and rather than run away while she could... she stood their waiting until she could see the whites of his eyes, screamed like a little girl, and then legged it up the stairs!

Oh, but if only that was last of it! My favourite thing in horror movies... "The Panic Walk". You know the one? They're running, they find themselves strapped... and then they do that... running from left to right and in circles thing! Kinda like a Groucho Marx type of walk! It's like, "Can we escape from the left?? No! How about the right? No!! Okay, so I've not checked the left in a few seconds, maybe there's a way to escape that way now? NOOOO!! Okay, so lets have a look at the right again..." and so on until someone dies or the bad guy comes up behind them and scares the shit outta them!

*laughs*
I love horror movies, really I do! And this is why! Because, for the most part... they're more like comedies than scary movies and that's great! But I've still yet to find one horror movies that scares me enough to give me nightmares, or else leave a lasting impression on me.

There was one when I was younger, "ChildsPlay", Chucky scared the living hell out of me! Even when I got older, the things I saw always spooked me! Until I swallowed my fear and watched the movies... And laughed all the way though it! Fear gone, left in it's place was shame and amusement! Best film, "The Bride of Chucky"... I mean, come on!! Two dolls... having doll sex!!! It's FUNNY!! *dies laughing*

Current Mood: amused

Well, update time! As usual, I wanna go back to bed. I just can't seem to get enough sleep and it's annoying! And I'm running out of good tea! TWO TEABAGS LEFT!!

Oh, the injustice of it all... *whimpers* I'll have to go and get more if I can somehow manage to work up enough energy to step out of the house and get some... But, most likely, I'm just gonna drink my two teabags, beg my dad to get me more, and then curl back up in bed and sleep for eternity!

My letter to DA... I lost it yesterday, then found it again stuffed inside a folder. I don't ever remember putting it inside a folder, but no matter! Least I have it now... and once I wake up I'll write some more... otherwise she'll think I was writing drunk and that's not good at all! (edit: sadly it has to wait now, dad's home for a few days for some reason and I don't want to risk him finding it and ripping it up... *sighs*)

I've posted in as many places on Lost Dreams as I can, to as many RPG's as I can. I need to post to "Twist in the Strand" and "Lady of the Lake" but I'm waiting on someone else to post to "Pandemonium" and everything else... I've no idea. I need to either send out some e-mails to a few people or harass them when they come on IM. Either way, I want to try and get LD active again! I miss RPing with everyone!

And here's another link! Iconfiend Challenge! Yep! I've made a few more icons and, shock of all horrors! I actually like most of these icons! But I'm sure that'll fade the more I look at them.

I've made a rule for myself, I have to make at least one icon a day. I've been doing good so far! I'm averaging at about three a day! Which is amazing for me!

Do you know how long it's been since I've had chocolate? I mean REAL chocolate?? AGES!!! And now I have some and I'm in heaven! ... But I'm too tired to fully appreciate it... which makes Foxxie sad!

Hmm... but this song make me happy. The tune... I recognise it from somewhere but for the life of me I can't remember where! It's annoying me! It sounds a little like some of the background music to Resident Evil... Hmm... and it's got a weird mix of nursery rhymes which amuses and makes me like the song even more!

"London Bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down..."

That used to spook me as a kid! I was always like, "REALLY?! NUUUU!!"

Hmm...... I need to get my brain into gear. I need to work on some ideas. I have places I want my RPG's to go, and places I want my characters to go... I just need to find a way to get the buggers there without others stopping them or messing it up myself... which I can happily do myself, thank you very much!

*wanders off to get some tea*

Current Mood: head-achy

Taken from coldwriter

I am the homosexual who doesn't want your pity.

I am the gay man who still goes to church, despite the fact that my faith calls me a sinner, and challenges the preconcieved notions that my congregation has about homosexuals.

I am the little girl who is proud of her two mommies, and stands up to the bullies who make fun of them.

I am the brave volunteer who visits the homes of those diagnosed with HIV, and gives hope to the dying.

I am the transsexual who became an international famous comic, the gay man who shouts out his sexual orientation on every episode of the quirky TV show, or the lesbian who makes inspirational music.

I am the family that, though initially afraid when our son came out of the closet, took the time to learn and grow, and eventually accept him for the wonderful individual that he is.

We are the gay and lesbian professionals and business owners who refuse to support or buy from those companies which endorse homophobia.

We are the lesbians who peacefully protest and campaign for gay rights.

I am a common straight person who lobbies Congress to allow people of alternative sexualities to adopt children, enter into marriage, and have family health insurance.

I am the person who doesn't fucking care which bathroom I use. It's a goddamn bathroom, not a sexual exhibition, and anyone who thinks otherwise is the one who is WRONG, not ME.

I am the attorney, the judge, the lawmaker who won't put up with violations of human rights based on race, gender, or EVEN sexual orientation.

I am the educator who will not stand for homophobia in the classroom, and who begins to teach acceptance instead of lies and fear.

I am the religious authority who will continue to believe that the most important rule is "love one another", and that everything else is just filler.

I'm the father who DID hug his son, because I'm secure in my sexuality.

I'm the high school student who is brave enough to start a club for peoples of alternative sexualities to give other teens a support network.

I am the person who will NEVER hide what this world needs most: love. Because, I am NOT a victim.

I now extend my hand to you, if you are suffering. I am not a victim, and you don't need to be one, either. My strength is your strength. Let us all, homosexuals and heterosexuals alike, do away with the culture of victimhood and begin to implement the culture of strength and bravery. We CAN change the world, as long as we stick together. We need to be strong.

What we don't need...is sympathy and pity.

Spread the word.

Current Mood: calm

So, how did my day begin? Like this of course:

gen_adrianfii: *hugs you* Foxy, ma hero!
fox_reed: *snuggles* All in a days work... for... SUPER FOXXIE!! *cue semi-dramatic theme music that sounds a hell of a lot like 70's porn music* ... *hums along*
gen_adrianfii: *blinks* ... your dramatic music is... porn music? ... SWEET!

It went from that to:

fox_reed: *wiggles* ... I've lost my hair brush...
gen_adrianfii: Aw!
fox_reed: I'm gonna go out looking like a right ol' weirdo if I don't find it!
gen_adrianfii: You should go look for it then!
fox_reed: *laughs* I should but I'm lazy!
fox_reed: And the idea of scaring people with my hair amuses me no end!
gen_adrianfii: *giggles* Foxy!
fox_reed: What??! I didn't say go out naked or something! *dies laughing* Though that'd scare even more people and eventually get me arrested!
gen_adrianfii: *giggles* ... do and take pictures!!!
fox_reed: Nuuuuuuu... *dies*
gen_adrianfii: YES!
fox_reed: *laughs*
gen_adrianfii: Nah, you shouldn't. I don't want you getting arrested.
fox_reed: Nope! Because knowing my luck I'd meet a big butch woman called Frank and you'd never see me again!!!!
gen_adrianfii: AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH! NO!
fox_reed: *dies laughing*

That last death by laughter was due to the fact that I'd inhaled my cup of tea. It's not good, and it burns. I don't advise anyone EVER doing that. And the sugar tickles... *snickers*

Anyhoo... I've just typed out a practice letter to DA. I tend to do that because then I copy it onto paper so I don't make any embarrassing typos... Like I've been known to do. Anyway, I was typing and typing and... I think I have a good 7 pages of, what basically amounts to shit... but it's something and it'll keep me occupied for a day or two as I write it out (I am the slowest writer in the WORLD!! Five year olds can write faster than I can!). And luckily my dad's going back to work today so can write it and send it in peace!

I'm a complicated mix of tired and hungry, I don't know which one is worse. I had an appointment thingie and had to run off this morning... Ice was gone when I came back. Hope she's okay!! But I'll talk to her tonight and find out so it's all cool!

I want some chocolate. Hmm.... Okay. So this is the plan. Get some sleep for an hour or two, get up and have something to eat, call my sister and get her to bring some chocolate home and sit and make icons while I talk to Wicked for the rest of the day! Ahh... good plan!!

Whoa... I've just found an ACTUAL picture of myself! It's a few years old... AWWWW!!! And some pictures of Casey when she was just a little boob obsessed kitty!! So cute!!!

Current Mood: sleepy

Mood Analysis Thingie .... that I find funny!

You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

Your situation is such that at this time it is essential that you resolve your inherent problems immediately. You are not listening nor taking heed from your many friends and advisers, all of which believe it or not, 'wish you well'. Most of your colleagues feel that your attitude is out of context - an attitude of recklessness and desperation. It is imperative that some solution be found, but whatever you do, think before you act.

Nothing seems to be going right for you and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time. Sit back and let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalize but you need to realize a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire.

Current Mood: contemplative